God of Sarcasm

As I sit here and breathe into my lungs, an understanding slowly dawns upon me about the nature of the beast that is humanity.  Without consciousness, without breath, man and woman descend into the most barbaric sorts of notions about reality.  The idiocy that spews forth from the thoughts of everyone from the lowest to the highest born amongst us prove the uselessness of the egoic way which is everywhere, saturating every thing.

You think you're above ego?  You think you've reached a state of mind where you can truly say that you are the master of your self?  Yet, if you can't shut up for five minutes, don't you just prove just how wrapped up in ego you are.  You can tell whose a self absorbed idiot quickly after you meet them in this regard.  Self absorbed idiots love to talk about themselves and their ideas, yet offer nothing more concrete in terms of advancing knowledge than the certainty that they are right.

The world is full of big headed thinkers who have thought their way into a box, though I use the term thought in the loosest possible sense.  It's rather an incredible thing really how many "experts" we have in this age.  They are paraded before us on shows run by big shots to tell us the next big thing every day all dedicated to selling us another plastic version of reality wrapped in mediocrity.  Has thou not heard, the answers are within?  But what's inside now but the brain train to nowhere, a endless tunnel of cell phone streams to nothing.  What's at the end of that promised paradise but another false face with a false promise and a fake thing for us to grasp onto for five minutes before the next dose of mind numbing gets us back on track to reach back into nowhere.

It's an amazing thing the perspective one gets when simply breathing and feeling, and all the world doesn't do it either.  It's like you're in a different universe inhabited solely by yourself and all the knowledge in the universe.  You get to bask in your own personal pocket dimension of feeling, and the rest of humanity is like a transparent sea of illusion.  You know you've gotten it when you see it.  Then, suddenly you've become the God of sarcasm in your own personal hate space dedicated to burning off the ocean of stupid.

You've got to understand the dedication it takes to walk the path of redemption.  You've got to believe in yourself enough to see that brief glimmer of light between dealing with the people who are shadows.  They reach out from their unconscious near undead state of wanting, wanting, wanting forever trapped in their pettiness.  It's a madness for sure that afflicts the modern lost human wandering the deserts of their own thoughts.  Each day brings a new distraction to take them further and further away from their souls which are found in their breath and in their feeling. 

The cell phone is arguably among the worst inventions in human history, having successfully zombified an entire generation of young people.  It would be glorious to see the damn things banned forever and we just go back to land lines.  I'd sign up for that plan in about 20 seconds.  Sadly, I think I'd be one of the few.  You know back in the day there was this thing called the sky we looked up into, and there were these things called people who we would look at and talk to.  You've gotta understand how insane it all is.  The only cure is to see it.  The only cure is to remind yourself that breathing, feeling, talking, caring, and looking at nature is your ticket out of the zombie zone.

It's not something that is meant to last.  You see the state of humanity, and you know this to be true.  Deep down, you know what is happening is wrong.  In your heart you have to know it.  Otherwise what good is having a brain?  Surely, something has to be done to stop the slide into indifference and more cell phone staring stupidity.  But, we'll just sit around and watch a generation be destroyed by technology instead.  I suppose someone will figure out how to profit from that too until they too are destroyed by the nothing they create.  It's a vast thing that destroys everything that isn't awake.  It's called life.  You'd be wise to try it sometime.

Upon Faith

I've been on some long walks recently deep in my darkness digesting the wounds of a life of self inflicted stupidity.  And then a remarkable realization dawned on me today.  It's all a question of faith.  Faith in myself.  I look around and I see many, many people who I was very angry at.  Something about them just disagreed with me.  And finally I realized that I wasn't angry at them but at faith they were apparently displaying in themselves for having things that I wanted very badly. Those things like a family and a real home.  Yet those things are themselves illusions without faith in one's self for one can never sit comfortably without that very faith.

But those things I wanted were as irrelevant as all the aggravations that appear to be real on the surface but hide a much deeper self angst about the emptiness within me.  That emptiness, despite my rather vast writing repertoire come down to the bitterness of the choice between faith and avoidance.  This choice, one that is actually very simple, is so fundamental to life.  Without faith in one's self, life becomes a drag.

Take a look at our leader of the world today.  You can see it in the way he is.  There is another man with no faith in himself.  You might think I'm joking, but it's as clear as day to me now.  The world crisis we are steering towards is actually rather about faith, and humanity's ultimate lack of it in itself.  Why else would we have picked a leader who is so faithless in himself that his every action demonstrates it for everyone to see?

That man is a product of a system that teaches one to have no faith in one's self and to rely upon aggression and falsehood to construct a false image of ones self.  It is the complete lost narrative of Western culture, now global culture, that places the material image above all things internal to our inner voice.  Here we see the failed nature of our system best represented by the hordes of men and women who have no faith in themselves, only faith in the inner narrative of aggression and putting others down.  That putting others down comes from the emptiness within themselves, from the lost faith in their own truth.

The darkness is a clever beast.  It hides so plainly that when one sees it everything becomes obvious as to what is happening and why it is happening.  Yet without a connection to the truth within, our narrative is just an empty hollow echo crying out desperately for our inner attention.  It is the broken world we have come to know.  It is the failure of institutions and the void in people.  It is the staring at cell phones and the mindless entertainment complex.  It is everything that we have been trying to avoid.  It is about believing in ourselves again. 

Could it be as simple as switching on the light inside our souls?  What if all the suffering of the world were just the consequence of us forgetting to turn on that light?  What if all the misery we put ourselves through was just because we very much don't want to believe that we are the ones we are waiting for?  Could it be just as easy as that?  What if I'm wrong?  What is something really, really horrible is at work here like the devil?  Obviously the con is that I'm right.  But who would dare to admit such a thing to themselves?  Who would dare to believe in anything in them anymore when every narrative demands submission to the idea that we are nothing in the face of the power of evil?

Such an idea is of course pure nonsense.  It is plain as day that we must have faith, and that we must have faith solely in our selves and our ability to solve our crisis.   I won't be so bold to say we don't a crisis, as that would smack of denial, but I will say that half the crisis is over with faith.  At least then, we can truly wake up and work from somewhere worth leaning on.

The Rise of Fascism and The Coming Two Centuries of Darkness

I hate thinking about writing about my visions as of late.  They have become dark and foreboding.  Visions of fascist forces rise in my mind's eye to terrorize the world.  Darkness for 200 to 300 years.  It's a bleak picture.  Only now, after having a couple of beers do I think I should bother trying to relate this approaching hell for all of us. 

It's an odd situation really.  I think I'm dead right in my dark view of what is coming for humanity.  The lack of consciousness is so extensive that this doom is just about written.  Yes, we'll overcome it.  Yes, we'll get to have a happy ending.  But 200 years of dark times is no joke.  That's 2-3 lifetimes of nastiness.

It's just that the right isn't going down without a fight.  I know many of you are expecting an easy go of of things once 45, our current president of the U.S. is swept from office in 2020 (you hope).  I don't want to dash all of your hopes against the rocks of realism, but get real.  Fascism is here to stay for quite some time.  Get used to it, and have an escape plan.  That's my advice.

It's just leftists have no clue when it comes to this sort of thing.  The right will not go down quietly as their list of grievances is too long.  They also are better at planning oppressive regimes and have the right angle to make it happen.  Rightists know how to lean into people  They are very good at it.

Now part of this is the beer talking, but you people on the left just have no clue.  You're already beaten in the first round.  I've seen in it my visions, which I won't mention in details even after two beers because the details are just too heart breaking.  It's a real sad story what's going to happen in the U.S.  Just too ugly to relate.  If you're smart, you'll have your Canadian passport in hand in the next few years.  But, I think it'll be too late for 99% of you.  Sorry if you get stuck, my life's no peach either.

In any case, things are going to get bad.  I just don't see how people work out their differences peacefully.  I wish I could say I could see the way they did work out their difference peacefully.  But, the system is built in such a way that working out their differences peacefully isn't a likely outcome.  You've got to understand that for people to be peaceful, there has to be some way to compromise, but I don't see a way of compromising out of the fundamental differences between people anymore.   It's just there are way too many assholes and way too little room to make a just solution.

Now this may not be my most intellectually pleasing essay, but it's my most honest about the real mood I'm in about this whole round of shit that's coming.  I wish I could be more specific, but I don't want to be accused of starting this whole round of violence when it gets going.  It's just build into the situation in the world now.  Things are grim.  Really, really grim.  But the vast majority are asleep and/or just giving their tacit approval for the ugly to start getting real.

If you know what I mean, then you know what I mean.  This sort of thing is just too ugly to discuss in polite company, but it's going down.  War, extremism, and the fall of the West.  There's no way around it.  We are doomed.  But, the good thing about being doomed is that at least you know you are doomed and get to understand what it is that you are about to experience.  And you can know that there is nothing you can do to stop it.  It's what it is.  And that at least sets you up to let go and let the goddamn thing happen.  We all have to go sometimes, and it's better just to go with the flow on the question.

I wish I had something brighter to say, but I don't.  I've seen the writing on the wall, and it's ugly.  The next 200 years and in some parts of the world, such as the United States, 300 years, is going to be rough.  Lots of jerks are going to run things for a bit.  Some of them are going to be right wing pigs, others are going to be left wing pigs. Some will be men, other women.  But the rotten ones are going to be rotten.  Sorry if you have to deal with them.  There will be lots of those types of people to deal with in the future. 

Such is life on Earth for now.  When the shit is gone, and the killing ends, then we can finally live again in peace.  Wish I could say it's going to be soon.  But the planet is about to get real hot, and life is going to get real difficult.  Wish people had listened to us smart folks who were trying to save us a whole lot of trouble.  But they didn't.  So now, alot of people are going to die.  Oh well.  That's what you get for bad decisions.  Good luck.  Hope you all end up one of the lucky ones who survives what's coming.  I use the term lucky in the loosest possible sense.