Look At Me Look At You Or The Power of Attention

The attention trick.  It's the oldest trick in the book.  Keeping attention is the name of the game, unless you haven't noticed all the pretty people in Hollywood hogging up all that attention we all want.  No wonder so many people hate Hollywood.  Imagine a world full of people desperate for attention hating everyone and everything that is taking it from them.  Well, lucky you, you don't have to!  You're living there!

Our attention seeking comes from our early childhood instincts.  If you were in your crib and no one was paying attention to you, you would get very hungry.  Since hunger equates to death for the infant, people become attention addicts later who didn't get enough attention when they were children.  Women, men, even cats, everyone wants attention.  When people don't get enough or when they notice someone getting more than them, the mega dramafest ensues to make sure the attention is back on them.

Think about it.  Every game of power and every game of money is about getting and keeping someone else's attention so as to get them to either give you something you need, want, or to keep your busy bee ego's control trip running for another lap.  Does this dress make me look fat?  Who gives a damn.  You only said it because you want it to be about you.  Yes dear, you look like a cow in a miniskirt.  You see?  The real masters of attention know how to game the system.  You might get slapped, but you'll be in control.

This strategy is for the bold.  For you more pleasing people who simply must please the attention starved control freak, God help you.  There is no pleasing these people.  Do you know why?  Because they are all bullshit artists.  No one can please an artist, least of all another artist.  And a bullshit artist?  Not a chance.  I could spell it out for those of you who are a bit slow; people are people, and most people are attention starved children stuck in adult bodies.  Can you reason with a child that wants attention.  No.  You must either give them attention or watch them throw a tantrum.  So then, let the tantrums commence.

Why is attention control?  Because we all want it deep inside.  Can you control attention?  Yes, by not giving it.  But can you get attention by not giving it?  No.  In any war of attention, the winning party will be the one who can successfully outshine the other one.  Notice all those singers out there who have managed to succeed grabbing attention by outshining their competitors.  Clever, clever.  A few of us are on to you.

Being pretty helps.  The young tend to get more attention than the old, so the old evened the score by creating a financial system that put them in charge of the money that the young people need to pay the old people for the right to utilize their property.  Even more clever.  Don't mess with grandma.

But once you know the game, you can turn the tables.  The underdogs always have the right to whine and demand!  It's almost a wonderful thing.  Can you imagine all the dispossessed whining in unison: look at us, this is what we want!  It's a thing not to be underestimated.  That's why the media rarely covers protests.  In our media controlled world, attention must be maintained on selling the products that the fatcats have deemed most essential.  That is so the attention stays on them and what they want.  Cleverer still.

But the game's not over!  The power of attention should never be underestimated.  Look around you there are people everywhere.  And they all want the same thing.  Give me, give me!  Love me tender.  Such is the way of the world.  Billions of hearts all yearning for the hearts and minds of others.  Can you feel it?  It's real.

The blessing in all this is that "we are the one's we have been looking for".  You've heard it before.  And this is what it's all about.  And, all other things being equal, you should never just tell your brother or sister "no" if all he or she asks you for is your attention, right?  It's one of those unwritten rules.  I'd call it the unwritten rule of demand.  Jesus talks about this when he says "Which of you fathers, if your son asks forf a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”  You see, all you have to do is ask.  The rule of demand states that no one can refuse the request of an innocent.  If you do refuse the request of an innocent, then you are in violation of God's law, and thus guilty of idolatry and deception.  You are misrepresenting yourself essentially.  Even if you believe you are a "simple human", false humility is nothing more than the ultimate hypocrisy if used to justify the denial of a just demand.  Though if you're tired you're temporarily excused.

Since everyone wants attention, knowing this unwritten law gives someone a slight edge.  Now I don't recommend you run out and use that argument against someone in the manner I have just presented.  The reason is that you don't need to.  Just by knowing the situation you enter into the state of having the advantage.  All argument occurs from a position of weakness unless it is done in the settings of a debate or to define positions when a discussion of definitions begins.  So only argue when it is necessary.  

We have established the grounds of the game with the idea that attention is what everyone wants.  We have established that attention is what everyone is fighting over.  We have also established that to get attention it is usually necessary to be dramatic, but not always.  Once attention is gotten, the next stage of the game begins.

Invalidation Train

Free speech is in theory a great concept.  Everyone has the right to say what they want.  But in practice the vast majority of us censor ourselves.  We have been taught to invalidate our feelings and thoughts.  Why?  Because others find our feelings inconvenient to them and what they think we need to be according to their understanding of what that is.  Our parents are the primary responsible party here.  Our teachers are the second.

How often have I heard it.  Snake oil "advice" crawling down my consciousness like so much toxic manipulative goo.  We know how to "fix" you.  You need to be more like us!  Interestingly none of the people who ever gave me advice ever managed to become millionaires.  Everyone and their gardener has an opinion of what we should be doing.  Oddly enough it is always the same litany of poor choices that they themselves made in life!

Invalidation is the process by which we are stripped of the confidence to make our own decisions by an army of well-wishers pretending to uplift us.  It is a lie wrapped in fakeness hiding the black and nasty hidden truth that in the eyes of these well-wishers we cannot be trusted to run our own lives.  Do you see how this empowers them and disempowers you?  Clever isn't it?  But not so nice at all.

The most sinister twist in all this is that we do it to ourselves!  We hand these "do-gooder" wolf in sheep's clothing liars and thieves the rope they use to hang us.  We allow their opinions to have validity.  I've seen it time and time again in my life.  But, I've had enough.  Today, someone crossed my line, and I perceived for the first time how really annoyed I was at being invalidated.  I tasted the injustice of being told I didn't have right to make my own decisions about something very close to my heart, my own line of work!  I was told I was wrong about the choice of the tools I use to practice.  Yet these very tools are only useful if they are personally meaningful.  Why should I give a damn what was said?  Because it ruined my sense of tranquility, or rather by my inner process I allowed it to.

Was my choice in some way threatening to this person in question?  If so, how?  Was it a reminder to them of how invalidated they have been in their lives?  Am I only experiencing their internal invalidation of themselves projected onto me?  Is that why I felt so personally effected?  If I was paid, would that have made up for the invalidation?  Or is that just me invalidating my choice by saying my choice is for sale.  But my choice is not for sale this time.  My choice here is worth more to be than any amount of money, because I will not be invalidated by manipulation, bullying, or other bullshit.

I feel sad and disgusted by this.  And I didn't deserve it.  After all the time it took for me to be confident enough to make my choice, for this one choice to be invalidated was to me utterly disrespectful of the effort it took to get to the point where I knew it was the correct choice.  I even used the tools correctly, and I was still invalidated in my use of them by this person.  My approach was rejected.  My mood wasn't so great today to deal with this type of crap as I hadn't slept well either.

What to do.  Keep using my tools obviously.  I like them.  I choose them.  They are mine.  And they serve me well because they are mine.  I am owed an apology as well.  The worst vice is advice.

Chris And The United States

The United States. It's a hodgepodge of contradictions. Contradictions don't last. A nation at cross purposes to itself. America is its own worst enemy. At the core is a lack of knowledge.

I myself understand. I too an a hodgepodge of contradictions often at odds with myself.

The United States and I share some very interesting astrology chart contacts in this regard. Saturn squares the US sun in its natal chart. My moon conjunct the us sun shows a powerful emotional bond to my birth country and also shares the saturn square with its visceral distaste for government. In addition my pluto c onjuncts the us saturn making for a rather uncomfortable experience of me having to challenge rather extremely the structure of the United States system itself. My sun opposes the saturn pluto combo meaning its personal, bitch. In addition that shitty us saturn opposes my mercury (this post is mercury saying f-off to the us system). To make matters better my sad Venus is also opposed to this saturn. In case no one noticed I'm in bulgaria right now nursing my lifelong frustration.

I have felt like an outsider crushed by the system of the US most of my life. Part of this is because my parents are immigrants and my father especially never adapted to us culture. He was always a bulgarian in his heart. I on the other hand am almost from a different time in many ways. Like a future America as America was meant to be not how it is.

I am close to people who relate to themselves from this point of view. One planet one people. I don't believe in nation, race, or religion. My identity is human. I relate to people's personal experience in life, not to the fake labelling system which hides our true nature from each other and destroys human intimacy at every level.
People are people but lies are lies. The human experience was made to be intimate. We are meant to be close to each other not far away. We are meant to be a human family. Yet everyday we invent reasons to deny this because of fear, insecurity, attachment, and a host of other half baked rationale
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We are destroying our own greatest desires. We have forgotten what we truly yearn for. This is true for all of humanity in general.

Survival has become our greatest excuse. We claim we are surviving yet every day ignoring the warning signs that say otherwise. Individuals don't survive. In case you didn't notice you need at least one male and one female for a human race to survive at the most basic definition. So why is the us so obsessed with "individuality". It's great for art but it makes a really shitty survival strategy and is in fact antiromantic. So much for intamacy.

In the us chart this is signified by moon in Aquarius. Emotions through ideology of individuality in this case. But unromantic Aquarius opposes the hot romantic Leo. The us is an unromantic country with cold emotions often caught up in instances of ideological turmoil. Great for science though and for friendship based on common ground between people.

My problem here is that my saturn in Leo opposes the us moon in Aquarius. There is just no winning. America's ideals of freedom I find cold and lacking. There isn't enough order in them for my saturn. I'd rather guns be banned and kids raised to respect a higher standard of personal discipline. I'd rather live in a society that has a higher level of personal maturity when it comes to creating consciousness. I like some of the freedom of expression but hate how it becomes a cause onto itself. Where is the final choice to embrace true freedom of personal expression as a whole?

But the US is not whole! Americans don't agree on much. Instead of embracing true freedom we have gotten bogged down in fighting each other over what true freedom means and then imposing those views on the other half and then on the whole freaking world!

It can't continue people. It goes against liberty, the right to self determination. In my personal opinion States should start pursuing their cultural ends. With the exception only of fossil fuel and nuclear technology regions of America must differentiate through the increase in local power choice (States power vs feds) within the limits of conscious understanding. America must evolve from a nation into a civilization. It cannot remain like a giant kindergarten where everything is controlled by self appointed cultural dictators.
Thats it for now. More thought for food.

Spiritual Warriors of the New Zeitgeist

It's been a long journey through consciousness to the place we are right now.  Once upon a time we all decided to get together and create an idea of togetherness based upon the ideal of planetary togetherness.  Yet here we stand a years, decades, or centuries after the announcement of the arrival of this new age of ideological revolution almost no closer to our goal than when we set out on the journey.  What has happened that has made our effort to create a new zeitgeist so unsuccessful?

Those of us who have made a conscious effort to redefine the very nature of human experience have often run into the rather daughting problem of the masses and their stubborn and rather lazy notion of what reality must consist of.  Inplicit in this resistance is the self serving agenda of billions of not so well wishing grouchy selfish people. And how is one supposed to precisely confront billions of selfish narcissists with the truth of their inability to find common ground with each other?  Believe me, it's not an easy process.

Certainly the media hasn't helped our goal.  In the hands of the ruling class of ideological and religious capitalists (i.e. the worshop of yon golden calf of old effectively) the media has made exposing this idiotic assortment of bad decision making and corrupt self deception next to impossible.  Most of the truth tellers don't have sufficient knowledge to begin to address the problem.  And the younger generation seems more addicted to cell phones than to doing anything about their future either. 

What to do then?  Well, someone is going to once again step up to the plate and call the fat cats out on their stuff and the people on theirs.  Today that someone is me.  My advice: go start an argument with someone about nasty corrupt bullshit situations you are fed up with.  Do it today.  You may just save someone else's soul, and in the process get a piece of yours back too.  

However if you ignore my message then you are a lazy irresponsible narcissist, which in all likelihood you don't care about.  Well my friend, if you are one of those people who doesn't like to help others I have news for you.  One day all that is going to catch up to you and you won't like it.  The future is in your hands.  Make of it as you will.  Remember, though, just about everyone is keeping score, and they have their eye on you.  And more importantly, someone else needs you, so don't screw it up. 

As a wise man once told me, welcome to Earth.  Her fate belongs to you.


What if Americans Actually Want A Welfare State

Everything in U.S. psychology implanted by the media says socialism and welfare states are bad.  This is the implicit message of our society's propaganda.  But to reduce a complex set of desires into a simple set of bad or good really doesn't get to the heart of the issue.  Welfare, as defined generally, is support by society through financial means for the basic needs of its citizens.  Now, who in their right mind would oppose such a great idea?  As it turns out, there are plenty of ideologically blinded individuals who will say that welfare is for all intents and purposes the invention of the devil intended to lead good "Christian" folk down the path of government control.  While all criticisms of welfare sound reasonable on the surface, the more we dig into the rhetoric the less real good we find.

In life, we all make choices, amongst which are the desires of the kind of society we wish to live in.  Some people would prefer a capitalist paradise, while others would prefer socialist one.  What is relevant is that these choices as values cannot be imperfect because they represent lifestyle choices for collectives.  One of the clear problems with current ideology is that the choices of some are honored while the choices of others are dishonored.  If choice does not damage others, then choice should be honored.  Yet, this is not how we choose to live our lives as a society, especially with regard to the harmful, violent dialogues we use to shame and blame those on the bottom end of the economic spectrum for their choices, or even their infirmities.

The result of propaganda is that people become convinced that what they want is what the authority wants.  As a consequence of complex propaganda, many Americans now believe (or at least are pretending to believe) that welfare is bad, but 60+ hours a week of labor is good.  As a consequence, America is on the path of permanent enslavement to an ideology of indentured servitude enforced by heartless middlemen, selfish careerists who have climbed the ladder to the position of personal guardians of the ruling class's supposed interests.  These middlemen are the real troublemakers because it is they who have created the ideology that we deal with today, and they are for the most part the enforcers of this ideology.  The bureaucrats have a partial interest in seeing the system succeed because the hard labor is left for those at the bottom.  The ideology of "work hard and you will get ahead" is a pyramid scheme that supports those in the middle, but not those at the bottom because hard work is not rewarded in our system of economic distribution.

Yet the process of hazing is ruthless, and is turned by the engine of ambition, the selfish cause of self serving greed.  Greed and force combine to produce intimidation and deception is used to cover up the fact that this the reality. We are treated to the smiley face dictatorship of pretenders and phonies lying to us (and themselves on many levels) who insist that all is right with our broken economic system.  What would you propose instead, a welfare state?  You goddamn communist.

But with public opinion so twisted by propaganda, how can what Americans say they want really be taken seriously?  If Americans were given a real choice, would they respond differently?  They have been told that going down the road of a more fair and balanced distribution of society's production is evil, because government, the big boogeyman, is incapable of creating such a system effectively (among other reasons given).  Yet, no one has really tried to do it properly, so how can it be said that it never worked?  It reminds me of how I hear some people say Christianity never worked.  It's funny because very few people have actually tried to live as Christians either and certainly no political system has lived by the words of Jesus.  So then how can you say something doesn't work if you've never tried to make it work?

What about Communism, some would ask.  First, Communism isn't a welfare state.  Second, Communism as envisioned by it's original founders has also never been tried.  While I wouldn't choose to live in a Communist system, because of lifestyle and political preference, we never really found out whether or not it worked because the people who implemented it (Lenin, but more especially Stalin, Mao, etc.) created something else that wasn't part of the original model besides being ruthless butchers of millions of people.  It is also very difficult to convince Americans that Communism and Socialism are two entirely different systems because of propaganda.  Socialism does not preclude some inequality.  Systems such as PROUT (PROgressive Utilization Theory) are forms of semi-socialist economic models, for instance, and advocate ideas such as a maximum wage to go along with a minimum one to keep wealth disparity lower.  Communism, on the other hand, tends to say that all inequality is bad.

Yet everything depends on our values in what we believe is "good" or "bad", but more specifically with what we think we like and what we think we don't.  Yet in such a monolithic world where all values have mostly been reduced to value of one's financial assets, all other social models have become sidelined to the rush to greed.  By now, however, a clear line between permanent winners and permanent losers is being drawn in our economic system.   No amount of propaganda is likely to cover up the realization that for many people, the future is a dead end financially and possible physically.  Yet still welfare is considered a dirty word even among people making very little working very hard for someone else.  Is some people's need to bow down to authority so great that they would destroy themselves worshiping an ideological lie rather than face the truth of how it is never going to work?  Apparently so.

The question remains, do Americans actually want a welfare state?  I believe the answer is yes, they do.  They simply don't realize that is what they want.  But America's current values point to this inevitable conclusion.  The conflict of values between families and our current version of capitalism (whatever you want to call it) is the core conflict.  In the end, family is required for human survival, but economic ideology is just window dressing.  Human needs will reshape American opinion to favor the creation of a new welfare state of some sort by necessity.  I believe it will be something like a workfare system (AmeriCorps) with guaranteed good hours that really represents our preferred lifestyle choices. In addition there is likely to be some sort of restructuring of how society's end products are distributed through some mechanism whether it is PROUT or worker ownership of "corporations".  In addition, community values must make a comeback if people are to survive.  I don't believe a redistribution of personal property is good or necessary in this process.  What matters is that people are rewarded for the work they do in the future.  For some, this will not be enough, but it is the most likely outcome and is the least destructive option for our society.

Creating Civilization

What is our reason for creating?  What is our reason for being?  Driving forwards into the future of humanity and the collective we can see what is the most likely set of trends evolving from the present to the future.  On one hand are the ideas of astrology, which in theory state that the future of humankind is somewhat readable from the procession of ages, a map from the unconscious revealable to the super conscious mind through conscious investigation and focus.  On the other hand is the unknown decisions of billions of individual people as they reach forth to find their own identities in a sea of information.

According to what I know, our species exists for a reason.  It exists to become a civilization, and then to master the cycles of civilization.  It also exists to master technology.  In this regard technology encompasses not the common definition of technology in industry and communications through electronics but also the dynamics of the technology of the body through the various sciences of medicine and anatomy.  However, as a necessary and complete warning to any civilization, before we attempt to master these areas of our possible development, it was and still is more prudent to master the conscience of the individual.

While it cannot be assumed that any individual civilization can be developed without technology, ideally a prudent civilization structures its development in such a way that the philosophical, moral, inner, or psychological side of technological development is guaranteed before any mass expansion is initiated.  However, such a process, being structured in such a manner, is likely a rarer feature than the haphazard way that most species likely develop.  In this respect, we most likely have outdone ourselves in haphazardness, recklessness, and poor decision making as a collective.  I would not bet even that this species is average in this regard, but instead likely one of the poorer examples in the universe.  I might be wrong in this, but I would not hazard to bet on our ability to organize ourselves to any great extent even compared to other species of a similar technological level or similar level of psychological development.  None the less the failures in the development of collective evolution are something of a concern of mine as I have noted quite a few rather egregious issues most proving human incompetence and sloppiness of multiple levels of generally necessary mental discipline.

Whether or not this is an accident of consciousness or a secondary product of some metaphysical nature relating to a more distant issue in time, I would not attempt a guess presently.  What is important is that this lack of order be rectified so that humanity is put back on track in its necessary course of development.  In this I think a final judgement of the past few ages in order.  Some errors have been committed and continue to be committed that must be reduced in absolute reason to their most simple frameworks.  In this regard we need to be free from certain notions as a civilization in order to proceed with precision to a conclusion that is necessary for us to see clearly what it means to be masters of civilization at the basic level. 

We are entering the Age of Aquarius it should be noted that Aquarius is not a sign of rigid order.  No, Aquarius is about emergence as a function of evolution.  It is a sign that is, for us, more akin to birth, but the birth of uniqueness and multiplicity of possible expression.  It is not, like Capricorn, a sign of discipline.  So, thus, whatever my personal preferences in terms of how our species in going to develop, the collective zeitgeist of the next 2200 years or so is going to be one of self discovery.  This is necessary and proper, but it does not eliminate the need to consider some very fundamental facts of how civilizations develop.

The nature of civilization is such that it emerges from collective notions of self.  The self concept is critical to understanding the psychology of civilizational expansion.  What is being sold by any particular civilization is its knowledge.  That knowledge imparts its meaning through the expressions of art and culture that make civilization whole.  Civilization is the extension of philosophy and defined spirituality through operations of development.  Civilization is the product of mass consciousness but also the product of advanced consciousness as leaders create the zeitgeist of civilization through their vision.  The leaders acquire followers and the followers carry out the vision.  The end result should be, ideally, a conscious civilization with a purpose, a mission, a defined parameter of development, a timetable, and an ultimate aim of realization (among other things).

Civilization is about the expression of imperative, which is the conscious directive of a particular philosophy of being.  Most of what we have experienced so far in terms of these developments are what essentially boil down to personality cults of various former divine or semi-divine teachers such as Buddha, Jesus, Moses, Muhammad,  Confucius, etc.  Yet none of these religious forms of worshiping the idol are truly a form of expression that can be considered advanced, much less divine.  Without a better model of creative development, the promises of such prophecies as given in the Bible can never be fulfilled.  The reason is because their implementation is sloppy, lacking detail, and purpose.  The chief proof of this is the obvious inconsistency with which these prophecies have been formed.  It is almost as if a bunch of drunk idiots decided to get together for the purpose of confusing everyone by throwing out ridiculous half baked ideas while high on some substance or another.  Now, I don't know about you, but I don't like the idea of following any type of idea that doesn't sound complete and sane.

Can you imagine sending down some ancient cosmic emissary to be incarnated on this planet in such a way?  Where is the welcoming committee?  If Jesus was so important to Christians, why aren't they actively seeking for him on the planet in his human incarnation?  What are there plans for when he arrives?  Where is the group of people dedicated to awaiting his arrival?  At least Jews leave out a cup of wine for Elijah's return, Christians just expect their messiah to save their stinking asses and drop them into a heaven without any sacrifice on their part because of his pleasing nature (They must figure that Jesus is the biggest sucker ever).   No, of course, he is supposed to do all the work (again?) and drag himself through another harrowing hate fest for a bunch of ingrates who aren't even trying to make him feel the slight bit welcome.  What kind of spiritual heritage is that?  I'll tell you, it's a lousy one.

This gets back to the point of what a civilization is supposed to be built on which is conscious intelligently designed and meaningful rituals of living and relating.  If you are going to have a messiah, then you should expect that messiah.  At least the Tibetan Buddhists have gotten that far.  But lets be honest, all of this really isn't enough to make a civilization worthwhile.

At the basic level, priorities are priorities.  I would argue this world isn't ready to welcome any Messiah worth his weight in salt much less gold.  Any real Messiah would put the welfare of the current generation of children in this world way ahead of his or her fat ego.  So then, while its all dandy to have a fully developed civilization that can consciously participate in the celebration of spiritual greatness of reincarnated great masters from the past, all of that comes before the need just to get rid of things that any such master would be appalled are still here; like starving children, child abuse, or the mass destruction of the planet's ecosystem by thieves, liars, and incompetents. 

So what this leaves us with is the problem of creating a basic society.  If we can manage that, then we can start to redesign every system to allow for the emergence of civilization, which is the by-product of many individuals achieving various degrees of self mastery.  As an astrologer this seems appropriate for an Age of Aquarius process leading to something more systemic in terms of collective expression in the Age of Capricorn and Sagittarius.  Realistically humans need to fix their basic problems again as our modes of being are broken.  This is the greatness of our day, a return to the basic truths of life.  A simpler spirituality for a more complex one, one that is realized through individual understanding of our individual responsibility to ourselves, the human world, and the planet.

In time I believe the Aqe of Aquarius will see the birth of a new civilizational model.  This model will be rooted in new concepts of self inquiry and self exploration born of the necessity of the crisis of our times.  As these concepts take root, a series of gradual changes will reveal the potential of future generations to them as they live their experience.  Yet leaders in consciousness will emerge to point to way to the future by revealing what within ourselves has been holding us back.  We are ready to emerge.  Civilization may indeed still be possible.  The choice belongs to us, and so it always must no matter what age we live in.

Artist

The artist lives for his art and the profiteer lives for what he can take.  Who is truly richer?